My First, My Last, My Everything

I was skeeered!!!

2009-03-15T15:47:06Z

Last night we had a SAW movie marathon. we got through the first 3 movies and are going to finish the last 2 this afternoon.
I usually don't do too well with scary movies, I don't have nightmares, but I get REALLY scared easily. So the kids are teasing me. They don't seem to get scared, even Jennifer who is 8 wasn't scared.
Ok I know all you mothers out there are asking WHAT? you let an 8 year old little girl watch that stuff? Well you have to know her ALL TIME favorite movie is HOUSE OF WAX (the one from 2005) she isn't easily intimidated...
So anyway...
The year before last at Halloween, I almost knocked Jimmy over running out of the haunted house we went to. It was REALLY scary! After you get out of the thing and think you are on the final stratch leaving the haunted house corridor and think it's over, some guy with a chainsaw comes out of nowhere running at you. I bolted and pushed Jimmy out of the way.
I don't think I'll ever live that one down...

alittlerebel @ 2009-03-05T14:58:00

2009-03-05T23:03:22Z

I feel like an idiot!
I have been yelling at my dog to stop barking out the front window today.
She hasn't been listening to me, which is very unlike her. Usualy I get onto her case and she quits whatever she is doing wrong.
So I put her little butt outside.
The barking continues...
I put the wrong culprit outside!
Chica knows how to bark....

alittlerebel @ 2009-03-05T13:01:00

2009-03-05T21:11:03Z

http://www.chrisjordan.com/
his web site kind of puts the numbers into perspective. It's pretty good.

Did you know...

3.6 million new SUVs sold in the US in 2004

Two million plastic beverage bottles, the number used in the US every five minutes

2.3 million Americans incarcerated in 2005. The U.S. has the largest prison population of any country in the world.

426,000 cell phones, retired in the US every day

24,000 GMC Yukon Denali, equal six weeks of sales of that model SUV in 2004

$12.5 million, the amount our government spends every hour on the war in Iraq

60,000 plastic bags, used in the US every five seconds.

Just blew my mind...

I just give up

2009-03-04T23:22:22Z

I am done fighting over things with my ex. We went to court on Monday and I realize that there is just no winning this fight.
After he lost my home in foreclosure, took a loan out on unencumbered property without my knowledge then lost it due to defaulting the loan, spent $25,000 at the casino in one week, and got away without paying child support for 8 months.... I am DONE!
I have so much more going on in my life right now, more important things than ulcers and sick stomachs, more important than losing sleep worrying about everything.
The Judge has us scheduled for trial on the 26th and I am just so in over my head, I've already spend over $7300 in attorneys fees before running out of savings and getting dumped because he wouldn't accept payments. (bloodsuckers didn't even file papers on time) So I am going to contact the Self Help Legal Center tomorrow and find out how to just stop this. I just can't continue. Medically it is effecting my health and ability to conduct everyday life. And I don't have the money to subpoena the records to prove my case, bring his old attourney to the trial to prove that he was the one who told me about the little casino trip, and just ARGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
*TAKES HUGE BREATH*
I'm done.

alittlerebel @ 2009-02-26T10:49:00

2009-02-26T18:51:25Z

I did call Cindy back and found out that she has Jury Duty today. But I have a very important paper to get finished today so I can file it with the court before our court date on Monday. So I called my boss at like 10pm last night to let him know that nobody is going to be there at 7 this morning. And guess he's going to wing it.
The bad thing about being a mail carrier... It's not like you can just play catch-up the next day, SOMEBODY HAS to deliver the mail that day. I told him I would call when I got done.
I hope he figures something else out in the mean time.

alittlerebel @ 2009-02-25T18:19:00

2009-02-26T02:24:30Z

I'm hiding from one of my co-workers. She has called and left messages asking if I would work a couple extra days for her this week. I really don't want to... I know I should call her back, and I will... Eventually.
I just wish I could earn money some how without having to actually work.
Or win the lottery. I don't see that happening either.

The craziness of it all !!

2009-02-23T20:42:01Z

It's 12:38pm and after this mornings commotion of wild attacking pitbulls and the birth of newborn puppies, I now have another one of our kids coming to live with us.
*runs off to buy another set of bunkbeds*
I'll explain more when I return...

UPDATE:
well I got a new bunkbed set for the girls. **checks that off list**

What they really needed was storage space most of all, but also another place for one to sleep, I think this was a good choice. Melissa won't be here forever, it's just a temporary thing...

So anyway, back to the craziness that was my morning...

I got the 2 younger kids up for school just as I always do and drove them to the Elementry School. On my way back home I thought it would be nice to drive the older boys to their school also instead of letting them stand in the rain waiting for the bus. On the way we stopped at Common Grounds and got them a coffee and a hot chocolate.

About that time, I got a call on my cell from Jimmy saying that there were dogs trying to get into the yard, That Bailey was having puppies, and that she bit him every time he tried to get her in the house. I was just down the street so I drove home real fast and discovered that there were 3 pitbulls and a boxer trying to jump the fence to attack my dogs. My female had gone into labor and was actualy delivering her puppies at that very moment in a hole she dug outside the entrance to her doghouse. Jimmy couldn't get her and bring her in because she was trying to bite him. She was terrified!

Anyway, after getting home and bringing my dog in, shooting the loose neighborhood dogs with a pellet gun, delivering one breech puppy that just didn't want to come out, and finding out that Melissa, Jimmy's daughter, will be staying with us for a couple months until she gets a place of her own, I had a very eventfull day!

alittlerebel @ 2009-02-22T08:38:00

2009-02-22T17:00:10Z

Seeing another LJ post about a fire in his kitchen has reminded me of the stupidest thing I probably ever did as a kid.

When I was in the 7th grade my parents were leaving for the weekend and I managed to talk them into letting me stay home by myself. There was this rule that I wasn't allowed to cook using the stove, but I thought, It'll be fine, I'll be really carefull. Being the typical teenager, I let my attention get caught up with who ever I was talking to on the phone, and the next thing I know the pot and the whole back of the stove had caught on fire! I managed to put it out, but the back wall and the side of the cupboards were charred... I knew I was dead!
So I repainted it!
My mom didn't find out until they sold the house and replaced the appliances.

I didn't think to pull out the stove and paint behind it...

OK a real quickie here...
What is the dumbest thing you did as a kid?

Bored....

2009-02-22T03:14:41Z

I'm experimenting with the LJ randomer thingy tonight. It's pretty interesting. It's wierd when you pop into one in another language.

So Yeah, I'm totally bored,

Just because I answered yes

2009-02-19T16:20:24Z

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you ?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of lj?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macerana?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Favorite fictional character of all time?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
27. What's your favorite hangout?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

my new baby

2009-02-17T03:35:55Z

I just have to post a picture of my new baby...
Meet Rocco. (and Jimmy my boyfriend)

25 random things meme stolen from plaidoe77

2009-02-08T04:27:07Z

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. It's just that I don't tag people, so if you feel the need... post

1-My favorite movie is A Walk To Remember. I love the way the Lord works in his life.

2.-I can't hold my alcohol, AT ALL... I'm tipsy after one margarita but at least I know this.

3.-I have 4 kids of my own. 3 boys and a girl. And we have Jimmy's son that lives here too, I consider him one of my kids. they are ages 15,13,11,11,8 and the youngest is the only girl.

4.-I secretly have this thing for tattoo's on a guy... I like em... Maybe it's because I have always been attracted to the "bad boy" *giggles*

5.-I'm an arms, shoulders and chest kinda girl. I like big thick arms, a nice big stocky chest, and shoulders on my man.

6.-I was supposed to go and buy another "family car" like a van, or another Suburban, but instead I secretly bought a Mustang and waited 2 hours before gathering the courage to call and telling Jimmy.

7.-I will generally try anything once. I mean, there are limits, but I don't believe that I can say I don't like something if I haven't tried it.

8.-I hate pickeled pigs feet (one of the things I tried once)

9.-I'm always the one in any given group who's freezing, At work I have a space heater under my case and people laugh because while I have my heater on, they have fans blowing to cool them off.

10.-I stayed in a domestic violence situation for another 7 years after he started beating me. That is something no one understands unless you have been there yourself. It is more of a pshycological terrorism and the beatings are easier to take than facing the fear of him taking your children or killing them all when they visit him. (threats I believed for years)

11.-I have a huge crush on Joey Lagano and it makes me feel dirty because he's so young.

12.-I'm a spoiled brat, I pout to get my way.

13.-My favorite colors are purple and white, and I collect Fairie figurines

14.-I don't lie, I always tell the truth when directly asked, I just don't offer up any additional information

15.-I like wearing my boyfriends Tshirts to bed

16.-I plan to learn to snowboard this year. I bought a new board, pink with fairies and matching boots and bindings.

17.-I was diagnosed Bipolar and ADHD at the age of 19. I forget just about everything, My kids love that I forget about grounding them.

18.-I love animals. I used to have 5 horses, 6 cats, 4 dogs, a goose, 10 chickens, 2 ducks, a peacock, 3 Macaws, a cockatoo, and a chineese fighting fish all at one time.

19.-There is alot more to me than most people realize, and they would never guess that I'm alot more freaky than I appear to be.

20.-my favorite candy is almond roca or anything with butter toffee and chocolate.

21.-I can't ride roller coasters without blowing chunks

22.-I can't think of anything else.... I suck at memes
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Valentines early

2009-02-07T15:25:49Z

Today is valentines day (for us) because next Saturday I have to work and this weekend my ex is SUPPOSED to have the kids... except he called and canceled.... But we are still going to lunch/dinner at Centrale, and I think he's going to love his gift.
*whispers*
I got him this Forty Niners calendar that he wanted,
some colectable tin with Dale Jr. and chocolates,
and 3 diffrent flavors of Body Frosting!
*giggles*

Jimmy had his surgery a couple weeks ago and is doing so much better. I'm glad that we had so much time to be together and do nothing. Sit in bed and watch Cold Case Files all day, Get hooked on some reality shows, and snuggle nonstop. I took 2 weeks off work to be home and take care of him. I'm so glad I did. I'm loving this....

So my cat is in heat now, but she is much too young to be bred, so we have to keep her in her cage until she comes out of heat so she won't spray. I am amazed at how wild and crazy she is acting...

Just ignore the mindless rambling.

2009-01-22T03:26:53Z

OMG I hate my EX!
and I think that the majority of people who go through divorce say that, but I REALLY hate my ex.
OK I just had to see it in writing.
Sorry.

just because

2009-01-21T04:20:43Z

Got my alarm/remote start installed in my new car today. *squee* I love it. The Suburban had remote start and I kinda got spoiled with being able to warm my car up from inside the house on cold mornings.

OK Try this again....

2009-01-13T15:50:21Z

I know I'll get it eventualy.
I need to REMEMBER to make the time to write in my journal.
THAT is my New Years resolution.
And get a new keyboard that doesn't have a sticking L key. It either makes too many of them, or there isn't the double L needed for words like hel and shel and smell. *Hey... the last one worked.... Anyway. I need a new wireless keyboard. I should get that today....*

alittlerebel @ 2008-11-17T16:03:00

2008-11-18T00:33:58Z

I got off work early today. In general, I like my job. I like being paid for a certain number of hours each day whether it takes me that long to do the job, or not. So I don't know why I'm sad. I feel like I am slowly falling into another depression. I have been battling bipolar or manic depression, or whatever you want to call it, since I was 19 and have recently gone back to my old ways of spending with reckless abandon. I don't want to do any of the things I need to do around the house. I feel lazy, and useless.

alittlerebel @ 2008-11-08T19:02:00

2008-11-09T03:15:24Z

November is birthday month for 2 of my boys. DJ is going to be 15 and Trevor is going to be 13. I think I am getting old. I miss when they were little....

YEAH ME!

2008-11-04T00:52:26Z

WooHoo... 2 posts in a row! I am back peoples.

I talked to the insurance investigator this morning about my claim for my Suburban. Still seems that this may take a while to get my claim settled. Things could be worse, at least I have a rental car.

get yer groove on!

2008-11-02T05:41:59Z

OK, OK... I admit that I've taken quite the hiatus... but all laziness aside, Things are actualy going pretty well.

I've finally gotten my childsupport issues between my ex and myself ironed out... It was not that he actually grew some balls, became a man, and started paying. The department of child support services FINALLY ordered a wage garnishment. *YEAH ME!*

I have quit working everyday. I only work perhaps 2 or 3 days a week now. And that is my biggest accomplishment, I hated working everyday, I never wanted to HAVE to work, I wanted to BE ABLE to work... a very big diffrence...

I also got a couple new additions to my animal family. I know, I know, Those of you who know me are saying under your breath... *another animal?* but I have actually found forever homes for most of the menagerie. I no longer have 5 horses, all 4 cats stayed at the old house with my ex (he has acreage) I have only the 2 Jack Russell's, I found homes for the Cockatoo, and the Conures, My Eclectus had an untimely demise, but I have picked up another troubled bird. I now have a Military Macaw, her former owner was too afraid of her to handle her, so she is a bit wary of people... for now... She doesn't bite, she is just unsure what is expected of her right now. She will come around, she is just barely a year old.
I also got a new baby, a Bengal kitten.
This is "Spotofgold Nikita"

and this is "Chica"

Back in June Jimmy was laid off, suddenly, and unexpectedly. Now he has gotten a new job. He is a dispatcher/driver at Calaveras Transit, our city bus system. He seems to like it. It was pretty hard for him when, after 12 years at the job he loved, the business suddenly just went under.

I did have my Suburban stolen a couple weeks ago, Right out of my driveway... they found it completely destroyed and burned. luckily I had full coverage insurance and have a rental car until they payout the loss.

So, basicly things are going well, we had a little Halloween get together with friends and family and that was nice. I enjoyed it very much and am really looking foreward to the holidays!

I am alive...

2008-08-21T19:35:46Z

I haven't posted in quite sometime, it seemed that life was is busy and work is exhausting, and I just don't have the drive. I am trying so hard to be everything for everybody, yet I'm just not stacking up.

I walked out on work today, got frustrated, and overwhelmed, felt trapped and just started to cry. I told my boss I was going home, I wasn't going to carry the route today and I left. I'm sure they will figure something out, at this point I just do not care.

I almost feel ike I'm falling into a depression again. I don't want to, but I can't seem to be able to control it. I don't feel like going to sleep or anything, I just want to run instead. Run away from al of the things that have been overwhelming me.

One of the most frustrating things is my job right now. I was never intending on working full time. Things haven't turned out the way they were supposed to, and I don't understand why everything is being allowed to happen. The courts tell my ex to do something and he doesn't do it, and nothing happens to him... I just don't get it...

Child support was ordered in November of last year, and we are coming to the end of August now, and the Child Support Services can't seem to get his wages attached? How is that? I feel that the most degrading things is that I keep being told that if I was on welfare then the state would have already attached his paycheck. This type of mentality leaves me completely speechless... I have a job, I have a good job, I just don't make enough to support 4 kids solely on my own, and they want me to quit and get on welfare? WTF?? How come you can't just help us who are really trying hard to help ourselves?

I need out... I need a break, Or it's going to turn into a breakdown...

Borrowed from Jenna

2008-06-08T02:36:15Z

alittlerebel @ 2008-05-14T08:46:00

2008-05-14T16:18:47Z

I've been pretty much "Stuck on Stupid" the last couple days.... My relationship with Jimmy couldn't get any better, and He has been doing all the things I have hoped he would do and I don't even have to ask him. Which makes it extra special because even though men would tend to disagree, women do not enjoy nagging.

I got the tickets for the family to go to the Frog Jumps on Thursday. It's so much cheaper to buy the kids the wrist bands than buying tickets, thats totally the way to go with a family of 7 and also buying everything online probably saved us over $100

So DJ is going to the fair with a group of his friends after school today, and will also go with us tomorrow. Trevor is going with us tomorrow, and wil stay the night with Jason and go again on Friday. I'm MAKING them go with US on Thursday. I know that the boys are getting older, and I am trying to allow them to branch out and grow up, but it's hard. Jared and James are both 10 yrs. Jennifer is 7 and The two older, are DJ 14yrs. and Trevor 12 yrs. It's just hard to maintain balance with letting them grow, but stil assuring that they do what is necessary for them to become responsible adults.

I'll post more later...

alittlerebel @ 2008-05-11T12:31:00

2008-05-11T19:38:36Z

Happy Mothers Day to the mommies on my LJ friends list.

Mean people suck!!!

2008-05-11T00:56:01Z

Seriously though...
I mean, why is it that some people are just chronicly mean? I think it must be because they are unhappy people, or maybe perhaps they are bitter about things? It's probably a little of both...

My oldest was talking to his dad yesterday and he asked if Jennifer and him would like to come up to his house for the day and visit on Saturday. I knew that The younger two boys would have a basebal game, and I would be working in Mokelumne Hill, So I said it would be alright with me. Even though I have told Daniel (my ex) that he needs to check with me BEFORE asking the kids something like that... He never listened to a word I said when we were married, I don't even know why I expect him to now...

So anyway.... This morning, I left for work as usual, and then Jimmy took 2 of the boys to their baseball game, and Daniel sent his girlfriend to pick up the other 2 kids. I deliver Daniel's mail, so I was driving right by the house and saw my daughter outside in the backyard. I stopped and wanted to give them a hug and to say HI. There was no way that I was going to drive by and ignore my little girl, she would have seen me and been pissed... So I got out and went up to the front door, knocked politely, and heard my oldest say "Come in" So I opened the door and he was pleasantly suprised to see me. He ran up gave me a hug and told me "You gotta meet Vickie's mom and sister!" (Vickie is my ex's new GF) So I went outside and DJ introduced me to them and they were nice, and the sister had a little boy about 4ish I guess (stil had a pacifier) Met Vickie's son, Nick, who was very polite, nice kid... he's probably 17 ish, and really I met everyone except Vickie herself.

So then Jennifer, my daughter ran up and gave me a huge hug too, and I went to pet all my old animals that he ended up getting custody of. After talking to everyone for a bit, I asked where Daniel was and DJ went to go get hime. He was in the bedroom taking a nap with Vickie. Daniel comes out of the bedroom yeling at me asking "What are you doing in my house?!" "I don't want you here, Leave!" That pissed me off... ALOT and I told my kids to get into the car, I took them back to the office with me... Funny thing is Vickie never came out of the bedroom when al of this was going on... She undoubtedly could hear us yeling at each other. But it's like she was hiding... it was wierd...

So anyway... I don't think I'm going to be so nice anymore... Wish I could see how he feels when He is only alowed to have contact with his kids on his visitation days... 4 days a month. I have always believed that being the bigger person and stooping to their level when someone is being an ass was the right thing to do, But for right now, I just feel ike getting even at this point.